ShOuLd i sTaRt paCkinG??

eversince d revision month started.. my room was a total mess.. i mean really messy.. books were everywhere.. on d table.. on d bed, on d floor..n even under the bed.. etc.. even searching them during d time of need pose a great difficulty.. cos it was not in order.. n i hv 2 search d whole stack again n again 2 find one..

Total of 11 postings.. wic we 1st started clinical years in year 3.. basically 2 years ago.. Wic are consists of Int. Medicine, Gen Surgery, Obs & Gynae, Psychiatry, Orthopaedic, Paediatric, Family Medicine, ENT, Ophthalmology, Anaesthesiology, Comm Medicine... We have 2 combine all those knowledge 2 face diz final MD(UKM) exam.. wic is the toughest exam of all of diz years..

Everyone were restless in preparing 4 d exam.. Anxiety, insomnia.. somnolence.. all of these feeling started 2 pour down 2 us.. I am no exception.. on d eve of every papers.. i can't hardly fall asleep..
theory paper lasted 4 a week.. n clinical exam will b conducted 4 one day.. 4 each candidate based on their luck.. lucky me.. got d 1st day.. sigh..

really depressed with the outcoming of the exam result... diz waiting make me suffer more.. should i start packing?? diz is d question dat i've always ask myself.. wat if i failed n need 2 reseat d paper 4 another 6 months..?? then i don have 2 pack and unpack all these things again.. n i have 2 cancel my air ticket 2 go back home.. wic i hope i don hv 2 do..

now i really had d typical features of ppl wif depression; with persistent low mood, lost of interest, feeling tired and lethargic but unable 2 fall asleep with early morning awakening..all these tinks are killing me slowly.. hope all these will b over sooner..

Pray Hard n Crossing mY fingers.. 4 a better 2moro..

sEqUeNce oF aWeFuL eVeNts..

iT starts with my clinical exam.. quite a tough one on monday d 16th.. my case was a child with *nephrotic syndrome.. with My Long case examiners are; Prof. Rahmah (paeds), Prof. Adeeb (o&g), Dr. Wong Ming (med), Mr. Shahar (orth).. i tink i was totally screwed up doin d long case, felt like so many tinks i din ask.. so many tinks i din do.. not sure did i cover all d so called essential tinks 2 secure a pass in my long case..








It was so aweful feeling.. y do i have 2 bear all these.. maybe it's a trial time from God.. 2 test my fate 2wards him.. i was so occupied wif my long case presentation n performance that i have loss my concentration during my short cases.. basically all tinks were screwed up dat day.. My examiners for d day are.. Prof Fadilah (med), Prof Maniam (Psy), Prof Hashim (o&g), Mr Jev (ENT), Dato' Ridzuan (surg).. I've started with a case of o&g wic is polyhydramnions.. got all the signs.. then a tough surgery case.. maybe i screwed so severely that i have 2 get 3 cases for my short cases wic are, trophic ulcer, *AVF, and thyroid swelling.. then i hv no mood 2 do my med short case wic i tink my finding was correct..




Then I was involved in an *MVA.. a careless motorcyclist accidentally knocked my hind lamp and broke it.. in a middle of a flyover.. wic i hardly wana stop.. cos it will surely cost a huge traffic jam.. result of dat.. i have 2 pay RM280 4 replacement of a new lamp.. aweful..










Then on d day i went 2 take d car from workshop, i stop in a dining place 2 have some breakfast..
the cost of d meal was RM 5.60.. but i have no change n have 2 pay wif my RM 50.. wic d balance is Rm 44.40.. wic was shouted out by the cashier in cantonese.. i startled 4 awhile.. n try 2 remain calm.. (in cantonese d pronounciation of 44.40 is almost similar 2 d word dead)..





hope dat evrytink will b fine.. juz hoping dat my exam result will b fine as well.. really hope for God blessing..how should i react?? currently are so depressed n down..

*nephrotic syndrome; a disease characterize by generalized swelling of the body
*MVA; motor vehicle accident
*AVF; ateriovenous fistula